Abril 2008


nobody understand how much i miss you. i miss how much we used to talk and i miss all the things we used to do. i may not get to see you as often as i like or get to hold you in my arms every night but deep in my heart i know your the only one i love and cant let go!! and for once i wont have to try to be happy it will just happen because of you. Im saying this now because i miss you a lot.. because i want you i want all of you “you and me” together everyday for the rest of my life.. i love you and i will always do.. mahal na mahal kita bieh khu.. mwuah!!your my everything!! nakz naman…hehehe drama itetch!!!

>>>jhenggay

Nangyari na ang dapat mangyari ang mainlove ako at pagkatapos ang masaktan.. siguro nga everything’s happen for a reaason siguro di talaga siya para sa akin..(drama ba ito!!) he..he..he.. anyway gusto ko lang sabihin na “I found a butterfly i make it mine.pero alam kong one day it will fly and go back where it belong,sa puso ko inangkin ko siya at minahal.I treasure the moment it landed on my palm nung time na yun gusto kong isara ang palad ko at hawakan siya ang mahigpit kasi alam ko it will fly and go back to where it belong.but i know that butterfly is not really meant for me.. that butterfly is meant to be free……(kaiyak naman!!!,,(T_T),)

I do trust and love people easily theres a high risk that in the long run thay will hurt me… Parang its easier pa na magsuffer ka with a lose in financial investment than the emotional one..Haaaiiiii,,!!!!!!(hingang malalim!!)toink!

pano ko ba sisimulang sabihin ang nangyaring kadramahan ng aking lovelife na masasabi kong bitter but sweet experience….fresh galing sa Baul..hehehe

Here it goes,it really is,UNEXPECTED! i never think to fall inlove with him.because: #1.he’s my friend a very dear friend and #2.i know he doesnt like me…

We started as a friend,he came to my life as a breathe of air.with him hindi ako natatakot na iexpress ang sarili ko hanggang yung feelings ko sa kanya ay magtransfom hindi sa monster….sa ibang level…

pagmagkasama kami pareho kaming masaya hanggang sa dumating yung point na bkit di namin subukan?pano kung magwork?pano kung meron talaga kaming chance tapos after ng mga tanong na yan….bOOOOMMmmm!!!!!tugshung!!!! naging officially na kami…I took the risk of loosing him as a friend and getting hurt again…wala akong nagawa kundi ang umiyak at magalit..pero anu pa nga ba ang magagawa ko???WALA!!! Naniwala ako nung sinabi nyang na mahal nya ko yun pala di pa pala yun ang tunay nyang nararamdaman for me..nadala lang siya nung mga panahong masaya siya habang kasama ako…sumugal ako na baka pagnagtagal kami may magbago sa feelings nya for me..pero natalo ako sa sugal di nya ko nagawang mahalin..masakit nung sinabi nya sakin yung totoo na meron siyang girl na hinihintay at nung nag ask ako kung mahal nya yung girl he said YES! to me…para sa akin mahal nya ako…………….bilang isang friend.kahit mahirap tananggap ko sa sarili ko ang katotohanang di kami para sa isat-isa na hanggang dun nalang siguro kami.

Being FRIENDS with him is tearing me apart.akala ko siya na pero sa kasamaang palad nagkamali na naman ako..haist!!!! i cried that night and i promised that i will never ever again ever shed a single tears for him…….TULOY PARIN ANG BUHAY!!!!! but he remained that “special someone to me”, He’s life is falling into a right places,and i have always been proud of him..he’s reaching his stars and above all was enought to be truly happy for him…its Over.. it happen to me 2 years ago..

I think that now days many people try to define themselves in a way that others will approve of, which is totally unnecessary. I mean I define myself as a young,hmmm……. smart!(toinkz!) and funny..ahihihihi… I feel that people should define themselves by thing they like, such as I have curly hair, I love to write, I am a true believer in underdogs, I am loyal,i love life, I am me. When you define yourself you should display things about yourself that you are proud of and, by things that explain who you are and what you want to be in the future. Most importantly you should define yourself not by what others want you to be but by what you want for yourself. Never let anyone compromise who you are and turn you into what they want you to be.Whenever I’m asked to describe myself, I never think in terms of my physical appearance. Maybe because it’s not that impressive except to my family, but mostly, it’s because my physical features don’t really describe the person inside of me. Instead, I tell who I am without mentioning the body parts. Does it really matter if I’m short or tall, thin or heavy or just right? It’s like trying to do a book report with only the cover as a reference. I like to think that I’m more than a cover.in addition I also met the love of my life, my prince charming..(uuyyyy…kiligin ba ku!hehe) he helped me to realize that life could be fulfilling. Having a person to love me for who I was inside and out, helped to make life much easier and less complicated.But than again,that depends on who you are? and what you choose to reveal? Before you begin to find ways of describing yourself. In truth you simply must be real.